Words are not enough

Joshua Lee Bigby

Six months can feel like forever. I cannot write a fitting tribute to a dear friend. It is hard to lose someone you care about. It is also hard to lose someone who cares about and respects you because you feel like there is one less person in the world who does. August was four years and four months. I lost Leah four years ago and at that point Josh four months. If four years is not enough time to remove the pain, six months most certainly isn't. However it is a point at which you begin to learn to manage the hurt. Basketball season will remind me of Josh and Christmas reminds me of both. I'm not stuck, just healing slowly. When something is ripped so suddenly from your life it takes time for the shock to wear off and more time for the healing to happen. Josh loved Eminem and I think one song sums up how Josh would tell us to live.

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back

I will leave you with that and a video I have been holding to myself for just the right moment because my words are not enough....